When I look at others, they deserve to be treated with a minimum of resepct regardless of what they have done. With myself, I feel less than deserving of anything. A false truth I’ve learned is that Once you have done something wrong, you start at the bottom of the lowest pit again. Nothing good you have done in the past counts anymore. So I have told myself for years: I don;t deserve to be loved, I don;t deserve to be treated with respect, etc. In my mind, this A has removed any positive things I’ve ever done and I am at the bottom again.